When I look into your eyes,
the world dissapears.
I forget my worries, problems,
stresses and all my fears.
Your my breath of air,
your my light of day.
When my words cluster up,
you always seem to understand what I say.
You give me reason,
to wake up tommorow and the next.
You so easily make my day,
with so little as a text.
I’m so in love with you.
I will never hurt you.
When I speak to you,
you’ll always know it’s true.
Well that’s if it’s a serious subject.
I will never raise a hand to you,
I’ll raise a hand to someone else,
for messing with or hurting you.
Your my everything
and in-between.
When I look into your eyes,
it’s the greatest sight I have ever seen!

I open my heart;

just for all to stare;

deep inside my soul;

through the gaping hole;

which once was my love;

fragile like a dove;

should I dare wonder;

if it is better;

to die all alone;

like my life has shown;

Fear of rejection;

longing affection;

as inside I die;

life passes me by;

I long for your touch;

I love you too much;

Should I dare wonder;

if it is better;

to just take the chance;

together we dance;

I know it sounds dumb;

whatever may come;

I want to be here;

where I do not fear;

the future to come;

i know it sounds dumb;

should I dare wonder;

if it is better;

for me to leave you;

before I hate you;

Tears fall like rain
Tears fall like rain from my eyes
Like a rainfall from my eyes
The pain I was caused
You put it all on me
I was destroyed because of you
Now I wish I could go back
To the love I now hate and despise
To the wonder that you took away
To the happiness I will never know again
And to the days I did not cry
The days where all I could be was happy
Those things taken away
As the tears fall like rain from my eyes

To all I have lost;
To all I have gained;
To all I Now miss;
To all I now love;
To all Who I have lost;
To all Who I have gained;
To all Who I now miss;
To all Who I now love;
To Sara Pipar;
To Nathan Greenerway;
To Carl Pace;
To Sean Jamerson;
Most of you were lost;
Just this past year;
I write this poem;
Just to show;
That you all will be in my heart;
For the rest of my days;

To say our final farewell it happend not that long ago.
Our final farewell, I remember it so clearly.
Our final farewell, I remember your smile.
Our final farewell, I remember how proud you were.
Our final farewell, I remember how your life was perfect.
Our final farewell, I remember how it all turned all so quick.
Our final farewell, I remember how ur family burned that night.
Our final farewell, I remember how I saved your life.
Our final farewell, I remember how it destroyed your life.
Our final farewell, I remember our last conversation.
Our final farewell, happened like any ‘goodbye’.
Our final farewell, you seemed happy.
Our final farewell, funny how life goes so fast.
Our final farewell, you seemed to enjoy life.
Our final farewell, you seemed to enjoy everything, 
Our final farewell, I remember the conversation.
Our final farewell, i bought you three years more.
Our final farewell, I wish i had been there for you.
Our final farewell, sometimes it haunts me.
Our final farewell, it happened so quick.
Our final farewell, I didn’t know I wouldnt see u alive again.
Our final farewell, my insomnia becomes unbearable.
Our final farewell, my depression hits the lowest.
Our final farewell, your lifeless body.
Our final farewell, I tear up inside.
Your final farewell, happened on the 2/12/11, when you were stabbed to death.

Depression is being tired, when you’re never able to sleep
Depression is pity, when you hate other’s sympathy
Depression is longing for more, when you never acknowlede what’s already there
Depression is the feeling of self-hatred, when the arrogance is concurrently overwhelming
Depression is the repugnance of emotional discomfort, when a sanctuary for physical affliction exists
Depression is loathing at your own success, when the ones around you prosper
Depression is perfectionism, when you could care less about anything else
Depression is the rock that you choose to constantly trip over, when all you have to do is move around it…
Depression is the ultimate cost of denial, when the truth is too much to handle